Wednesday, February 25, 2009

What If....

I saw his name on my facebook live feed. He became friends with a friend of mine. My heart skipped a beat. I clicked on the hyperlink to view his profile, he was restricted. Immediately, I sent him a friend request. I was excited and anxious at the same time. What a way to re-unite back with him. Is he married?, engaged, divorced, or still searching??..i wanted to know. He accepted my facebook request several days later. He was getting married in a week’s time!, I was happy for him but I was also filled with “What ifs”.

T.E. was my first baby crush!...We were in primary three/four then. He was very intelligent , from a rich home and was very handsome too. All the teachers loved him and ofcourse all the girls, I still wonder what we knew back then ‘cos we were so tiny yet….we had eye for fine boys. I sat a few seats behind him and always wished he would talk to me. I was too shy and timid to even try. I would day dream and see us getting married and having children in the future (daydreaming was my second nature as a child....). There was this game my sister taught me, if you wanted to find out if someone liked you or not, you’d write down their name, divide it by your name and strike out similar alphabets, whatever number of alphabet was left would determine whether it was love or hate..lol, One day, I tried it, using his name and my name and was grinning ‘cos it turned out positive. My sister saw the look on my face and snatched the paper from me and screamed with glee
“Ehhhhh….everybody come and see oh!, MOI & T.E. like eachother oh..”
I almost passed out. Till date, I’m still teased about it at home. Anyway, we finished primary school and moved on to separate schools for secondary school. I never stopped thinking about what became of him ‘cos I never heard of him. Many many years down the line, I see him on Facebook (thank God for facebook). And I thought to myself, what if I had connected with him much earlier than now what would have happened?, would we have hit it off again (not like we did before sha)?, Well….I guess I am only left with my imagination, “What if”…. Somethings are just never meant to be. No matter how right they seem…..

Happy married life T.E. May God grant you Joy, peace, Happiness & plenty of goodies in your marriage….

14 comments:

tobenna said...

This your baby crush that you remember with such alarming accuracy worry oh. :P
Hope you are keeping well?

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Olufunke said...

Beulah Beulah....
Welcome back, you wont believe I was dicussing with a fellow blogger today about those that have not updated in a while, and your name came up.

This primary-baby crush ....na wa o! Very interesting.
I guess we all at one tiem or the other have one 'what if' or the other.

simplegal said...

Welcome back Beulah!!
I was the victim of two primary/baby crushes....I'm good friends with one today, and the other I have absolutely no clue. All I remember is that his name was John Nelson, and he was Belgian :)
How have you been dear?

rayo said...

lol. was it flames? the name strikin thingie

Enkay said...

I was beginning to wonder if u've absconded from blogville!

Seriously, if the guy wasn't getting married next week, would you have deliberately sought him out?

Primary school is such a faraway memory for me so I bet that crush must have been a huge one for you to remember it so vividly!

Aijay said...

Wow! That must have been a helluva crush. Well, atleast now u know what he's up to.

Welcome back babe!!

Original Mgbeke said...

Awwww. The game you are talking about is called FLAMES abi?
My dear ehn, there have been so many what ifs in my life that I'm just like whatever! if it was meant to be, it would have been.

simeone said...

eyaah..ur story is really funny..i think we all had that primary school crush..lyk u said.. i wonder what we knew then/..lol

Beulah! said...

Yes oh @Rayo, Original Mgb, It is called FLAMES!!...i remember.

@Tobe,Enkay,Aijay,Hmmn...u people won't understand oh!. It was a serious crush, i didn't get over it for a long time.

@Olufunke, Simplegal, thanks...it's so good to be back again. I hope i don't disappear again..lol

@Simeone, i still wonder myself oh!...we seemed so big in our own eyes

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

Well, you did the right thing - wishing him well. Better to focus on the blessings on the horizon, right?

Jaycee said...

LOLL...

Dabizniz said...

Abeg let go oh...Don't think about what ifs that's why I am still hurting since my wife was checking out what if's

Miss Iyabo Opeke said...

So U did that name thingy too???...OMG!!!
I wonder whoever invented that??? Anyways, thanks for visitin'...